May 2003
I love New York... The city is always sooo electric and energizing. I am always amazed at how service oriented everyone is.... I have even found a fresh juice bar in downtown E. Manhattan. The hotel that I am staying at has a pillow menu with over 10 different pillows from a magnetic one to a water pillow. I am having such fun picking out a few different ones tonight although my favorite is the 5 ft. one that I stick in bed next to me and cuddle up to it as if this long pillow is my lover...I always stay at this hotel because I feel comfortable as I am well taken care of. I am quite busy here as there are few Tantra Educators ...
My brother from Boston flew into see me on the weekend... We have become closer since my 'moms sickness and passing away. We went out to a very busy restaurant called Tao where the most enormous Buddha statue is standing in the front room...We were going to go to the Sex Museum, I am not kidding, however we ended up talking for hours about when we were growing up and how he always liked my girlfriends and actually they always liked him sometime paying more attention to him rather then me...It brings up old memories of such carefree times...
I connected with another Tantric Goddess who teaches Tantra in NY. She actually lives in a lovely house in Queens. I went to visit her and I was pleasantly surprised at the work that she has put into preparing her Healing Room. We had a glass of wine and cheese and then she wanted to perform her Temple Dance in honor of me. Let me explain: In ancient times, Temple Dancing was performed by Sexual Healing Goddesses done with focused intention bestowed upon the male who sat intently watching, being present for the Temple Dancer. His reward was amazing energy and healing since the dance was intended for that purpose... So I sat there as the witness to her dance... I stayed present and focused on her Temple Dance and felt this powerful energy that she was sending to me...I was also deeply moved by her dance...I then was motivated to reciprocate by performing my own Temple Dance as she watched.... Then we both danced together freely, moving our hips and swirling colorful scarves around as she played exquisite music to move to.... We had sooo much fun and it was extremely energizing...It was an evening of "Goddess Bonding."
June 2003
I am thinking, as I am driving late at night on the 5 towards San Francisco, that perhaps I should have left in the morning.. I don't like this two-lane highway with giant trucks that are taking up both lanes. I don't need any coffee since my adrenalin is pumped up from the nervousness of passing a caravan of enormous trucks, in which they seem to swerve any minute into my lane, as I have to go 80 miles an hour just to pass them...Much to my dismay, this keeps happening for hours on the 5... I 't think I would drive on the 5 again if someone offered me a million dollars...On second thought, well... maybe I would...All kidding aside, I think of turning back quite a few times but kept on thinking that the next truck would be the last but those trucks stayed until the wee hours of the morning.... I certainly have an appreciation for the trucking industry and how fortunate we are to be able to buy all these goods and foods at a store so easily and I sent these trucks love as I passed them however I still prefer to drive a freeway that they don't travel as much. I end up driving all night, since I got a bit lost and ended up having to back track ...I arrived at 7am at the quaint French Hotel, {don't hold it against me]. Amazingly enough I am not tired and after resting for only one and one half hours, I awake refreshed and ready to take a walk around the lovely lake with many ducks in it and around it...
I must tell you all about the most incredible couple that I was blessed to have worked with while here.. They actually embody the Tantric practices and Tantric Philosophy in their everyday lives and in the bedroom as well. It was so refreshing to feel and watch how loving and compassionate they were to each other. I might mention that they have been together even as childhood sweethearts and that in its self is astonishing with the divorce rate as it is...They are Living Proof that a couple can stay happily married, bringing up children, both have full time careers, stay passionately in love, be monogamous and make plenty of time to have healing Tantric Sex...Their relationship validates everything I have been teaching and writing. The energy flowing thru all of us was blissful in which words cannot describe...I felt honored to be a part of this...This experience is one that what makes my work so worthwhile...
One last thought: My most Perfect Vision for all of you, my precious Devotees, is that one day you will be able to experience your Sexuality as Healing. I can promise you that it will prove to be so freeing and such Liberation!!!
Erotica LA in June at the Convention Center: I drove there with a friend since I am not fond of driving downtown. As we were walking into the entrance there were many women walking around scantily dressed and women advertising their websites or products in their booths... Of course there were many men walking around or standing in line to purchase autographed photos or videos of these lovely Goddesses...It was fun walking around checking out booths with gels and roll on creams to apply on the clitoris and capsules to swallow that were all promising faster sexual arousal and deeper orgasms... Funny since Tantric Sex is all about slowing everything down to attune to the natural rhythms of the body. When a woman is connected in her body and relaxed with her partner, she can surrender to waves of orgasms. Still another booth had candles the shape of Lingams in all colors, erect ones and flaccid ones lying over. I love Lingams both erect and flaccid but I decided to buy two erect ones, blue and light green.... ...
...Another booth has every conceivable size, shape and color vibrators, for clitoral, anal, and vaginal stimulation and penetration...Wow!! This is abit over whelming for a little old fashion Tantric Goddess like me... I prefer a good erect proud Lingam to penetrate me and a creative long lasting patient tongue to stimulate my Yoni...Heavens. I am getting myself juicy with all this talk.... Seriously though I soon tire of all this and go upstairs to the Tantra mini seminars that were being held there.. You see, my Precious Devotees', Tantric Oasis is always on the cutting edge of Philosophy, Sexuality and Spirituality.
JULY 2003
July is flying by already and I have been through some challenging times with my ''s disease and his passing away this month...When I was in Boston the first time this month, he was still alive then and I stayed at a Marriott that was right by the Charles River surrounded by forest. It was heavenly since I could get up in the morning and hike through the woods. I never saw so many squirrels, even baby ones...It is amazing how open I felt in my body being surrounded by nature...It is truly magical being able to canoe down the river or eat my lunch by the water surrounded by trees. The utter magnificence of this pristine setting was quite healing to me in my trying time. Even though it was only a three star hotel, the view and the gorgeous grounds made up for it... I went to see my grandmother who is 97 and although she has Altemiers she remembered me and held a conversation with my brother and I...How amazing that she actually outlived both my Grandfather, her husband and her son, {my father}.. Well that's a woman for you. We certainly must have a secret, eh? It was lovely seeing my aunt and uncle and my nephews and nieces... I have been away from Massachusetts, living in California a long time...The pace of living in Massachusetts is slower, especially in the suburbs.... The emphasis is more on family then in LA...I find myself missing that, now that my mom passed on a few months ago and my father has only a few weeks to live...
It is a bit scary, actually how time keeps flying by no matter how you try to make it slow down or at times even want it to stop completely so you can catch up with things or sort your life or thoughts out. Praying for a little break or reprieve where time would stand still and you could finally rest and get into feeling a little more but the time keeps clicking away minutes into hours into days into months and yes those dam years keep going by...I then begin to think about if time in this dimension ever stands still and .I remember.... of course it does. In the moment of Orgasm, time becomes eternal for that brief moment. Unfortunately men have trained themselves to have briefer moments and be in more of a hurry to get it over {except Tantric men}... Luckily us creative women can have many of those moments again and again....
So it became clear to me that we must all practice Orgasming more often and not only can we stop time but we can regress the aging process as well and we can enjoy much more pleasure and then we would love ourselves and others more and experience more joy and passion in our lives and there wouldn't be any wars because men would much rather experience ongoing Bliss and Pleasure then get all shot up and kill others. There probably wouldn't be any greed, rape or child abuse either. We could leave our doors unlocked and their would be no need for those annoying loud car alarms that go off when no one even pays attention to them anymore.... There would be no world hunger and young girls' clitoris's being cut off with dull blades There would be no poverty, no disease, because you can't get sick if you are feeling lots of pleasure and avoiding pain and stress, no shame, guilt and embarrassment about our bodies... Wow I could go on and on...It would be, in short, a Living Paradise on earth...Then I woke up...GOTCH CHA!!! Seriously now I feel we all could do some good in our lives and the world if we would envision that now and again and of course have more ORGASMS
The second time I went back, I stayed with my brother in Newton and we went to my Dad's wake together... This was quite an ordeal since my Father was such an icon and had employed literally 1000's of people and so many others who knew him or of him. Yet all this power, wealth and control couldn't take away his
Cancer. In fact I am sure it contributed to it.... I couldn't help but think to myself, " Was it all worth it Dad? Wouldn't you have rather loved more or had more of the big Os?" The answer I heard from his spirit was "Absolutely!!"
August 2003
I have been on a cleanse called 'Arise and Shine", this month which is quite challenging ...I am not trying to lose weight so much but to cleanse my body of toxins both chemical and emotional...I have been meditating, doing yoga and walking on the beach barefoot in the soft ...I have been dealing with a lot of sadness that comes up when I meditate for longer then 15 minutes...Yes it is painful but I am releasing so much...Wow when I eat the same things every day, I am noticing how much food is included in most every social affair...We use food when we are hungry, when we are bored, when we are happy, when we are sad, when we are in love and when we are not, when we have been rejected or to celebrate a promotion or to drown our sorrows when we have been fired, and even when we are depressed..... It takes such incredible discipline to just eat to live instead of living to eat.... When I am not using food to stuff feelings then those feelings have to come up and out...It is actually quite liberating in the body and the mind and naturally the spirit frees up...I can see why all great Masters including High Priestesses used abstaining from solid food as a great discipline and being able to get in touch with higher and more blissful states of awareness...I am not taking it to extremes... I have been treating myself to eating at the Raw Restaurant in Santa Monica where Woody Haralson might be seen or a number of other celebrities...My favorite juice there is pomegranate...Yikes, I cannot believe that summer is almost over.. I am noticing that it doesn't stay light until 8pm any more. ..I am getting back into hiking again.... It is sooo peaceful and natural...My whole body feels open and alive like when I was at the hotel in Newton...
By the way I had so much fun making that mpeg when I was sailing.... Aren't I the best looking captain around???? They say it is Good Luck when dolphins follow your boat so I am lucky, lucky, and even luckier! I love those beautiful creatures.... I shall leave you with something that I have been contemplating...I like to read it slowly and let each word sink in:
"Tantra is a cult of ecstasy, a personal religion based on the Mystical experience of joy rather than established dogma. Sex is holy to a Tantric. It is worship; it is energizing and life-giving. Tantric art, writings, and religious rituals glorify sex. Tantrics are anti-ascetic; they affirm life. They teach the discovery of the divine through the exaltation of the total human. They use all of the senses, the mind and the spirit to reach mystic peaks."
----- Kamala Devi, The Eastern Way Of Love
September 2003
Here I am back in NYC for the last time. Why for the last time? I am again reinventing myself as I expand and transcend to more of who I truly am.. It is almost time to take the Tantric Oasis flash series of "The Adventures of Dagny The Immortal Tantrika", and make it a tangible comic book and get it out to the public and it is the right time to finish my book, "Journey into The Heart of Your Sexuality, A Tantric Tale of Sexual Healing....I feel in my heart it is the natural flow of what is next to evolve.
Sunday:: While I am here I finally took time to go to the Museum of Sex on Fifth Street...Very interesting Sex History of New York in which it investigates the sexual subcultures of the city's past and present, exploring the means by which they influenced the development of modern attitudes about Sex and Sexuality, although we still have a long long way to go...Note here that most of these "Beyond their Time Brave Souls" were without a doubt, Women!! I took notes since they wouldn't let me bring my camera into the museum. So use your Imagination!.....
In the 1830's a subculture of middleclass men frequented brothels which offered the "French Treatment" or Oral Sex.. Infact some prostitutes actually had calling cards offering these "French Treatments". I really feel for those women in the brothels since a lot of people in that era didn't bathe but once a week...
Can you imagine that in 1872 that there was an outspoken advocate of Free Love and her name was Victoria Woodhull? She once declared:: " I am a free lover. I have a constitutional right to love whom I may." Unfortunately she was commonly referred to as "Mrs. Satan"...She obviously was born too early.. She would have fit right in around the 60's... She also marched into the NY police station and demanded the right to vote..
Believe it or not, Ann Trow Lohman, AKA known as Madame Restelt actually performed abortions in the late 1800's...By 1903 Paris France invented instruments for abortion for production which sold in the market places...Margaret Sanger and her sister opened the country's first birth control clinic in Brooklyn in 1916...Nine days later, police shut them down, arrested and convicted them.... What brave women... These were true Goddesses.. Of course by the late 1920's pharmacists were now selling condoms and not getting arrested!
I was fascinated by the mutoscope, which was a hand cranked motion picture machine invented in 1895... This was the infamous peep shows.. There was no nudity only dancing girls in sheer material wrapped around the body with a thicker material as a sash covering the genital area.. As I cranked the handle she keep dancing around as if a motion picture...I would have much more preferred dancing men! LOL
By 1907, New York had the Ziegfeld Follies, slender pretty dancers with wide smiles who kicked together in perfect sequence...By the 1920's the "Dance Troup" made up of three little maids advertised as the " Different Dancers" performed a blend of comedy, dance and contortionist. They didn't dance nude however they sold nude photos of the three of them under the counter, no doubt, to admiring fans. By 1927, most dancers begin to strip. By 1930 Theatres were solely dedicated to striptease, Gypsy Rose Lee being the most famous. Even Sally Rand who had trained as a ballet dancer turned to striptease with the onset of the Great Depression.... but in1942 striptease was finally banned in NYC...
Novels and Romantic Poetry like that of Lord Byron labeled, as "Byron the Forbidden" was considered detrimental to the morals of young women in 1869.. Police confiscated and then burned books like "Lady Chatterley's Lover", 1928, "Lady Chatterley's Husbands," 1921, "The Secret Places of the Human Body", 1935.. "Diary of a Smut Hound" in 1930, sold as a hardcopy for one dollar and Chapter One was called " A nude is a naked woman"..
Ah yes, Mae West- notorious for her hour glass figure and brazen wit was in and out of court for plays she starred in like her play called "Sex" in 1926 about prostitution. FYI Mae was close to 40 before she went to Hollywood...What about the great Bettie Page {1911 to 1966}?? She was pin up with both dominant and submissive photos and videos too.
How about this information?? Kinsey Institute of Research in Sex took until 1940 before they researched Fellatio... In fact I saw this erotic drawing by them of a single nude man bent over sucking on his lingam. Now there is a feat!!!
Lesbianism was a popular subject in pulp fiction in the 50's and 60's... Best selling paperback in 1959 was " Women Without Men"... Now that would be a sad state of affairs!!!
Lastly my favorite heroine, Annie Sprinkle who after years of being in porn films and live theatre performances, got her PhD in Sexuality in 2002.... She once performed on stage at the Kitchen in 1989. She used a self-inserted speculum to keep her cervix open then invited the audience up to view it with a flashlight and comment on it. Why did she do that?? To take the mystery, curiosity and shame out of this unknown territory. Need I say more?
So please let us all take a few brief moments to graciously honor and be most appreciative of all these brave Goddesses who paved the path through their suffering to bring us into an era of Transformed Sex...well almost!!! I am hoping to expand our sexuality to an even higher level of consciousness, Tantrically speaking!
Oh I was hoping that all of you could enjoy the photos I took of a Brazilian parade down 3rd Street that I happened upon after the museum...Unfortunately for all of us, they never appeared on my super duper digital camera. It was amazing the costumes, masks and feather headdresses they were wearing.... Instead I took a few photos of the view out my window while staying at the Benjamin Hotel on 50th and Lexington. Many are amazed with such a lovely balcony with real plants right in the middle of this crazy city...I hope you all enjoy my brave attempt at photography!!
Much Love and Juiciness, Dr. Dagny.
October 2003
Last Sunday I went to the Yoga Expo at the LA Convention Center, the same place that the Erotica Show was but very different in so many ways...First the energy in the place and of the people there was much more open and loving. They appeared to have a purpose and were motivated by helping others as well as being successful themselves.... There were yoga instructors selling videos, books and music, demonstrating poses and yoga chairs, swings and even tightrope yoga. There were booths selling organic clothes as well as workout clothes, sandals and shoes, selling water treated with oxygen and water treated with energy crystals. One booth was testing supplements with a Biophotonic Laser Scanner.. There were different booths selling HGH releasing products as well as Rainforest herbs, Ayurveda products, infrared portable saunas and private spa vacations. There were capsules and tonics to feel more energy, build your immune system, get rid of cancer and so much more... There were crystals and candles in all sizes and colors, and precious gems and exquisite beaded jewelry. There were vibrating chairs, chi machines and fresh air machines...Products for your face, your body, your mind and your soul and of course there was a Tantra booth...By the way I hope you enjoy my little Mpeg of me by the Beautiful Spiritual Altar ...
This month is going to be a challenge in terms of my emotions since both my Mom and Dad's Birth-Day is the 12th and 14th..I still sometime cannot believe that they both have passed on even though I don't believe in death only transition to a higher Vibration and Dimension....
As I come out of meditation I have the realization that the reason so many Americans have never fully explored Love or Sex is simply because of being raised in a culture that values expertise above exploration... so as we mature the natural tendency is to limit ourselves to the activities, things and emotions that we have developed considerable skills at. Unfortunately, Love, Intimacy and Spiritual growth are not high up on the ladder.. But I have faith in all of you to transform those limitations....
In ending I want to take this opportunity to let you know how much I appreciate your support and loyalty of the isle of Tantric Oasis. All monies from your subscriptions go back into updates and etc... ...
Much Love, Intimacy and Juiciness in your Lives, Dr. Dagny
November 2003
So do I look like I am having fun at my friend Tom's Birthday party??? He certainly looks like he is...He's an ex music producer and you know how much they love to party...Thought I should socialize for the evening since I am moving this week... Yes I have decided to leave Marina Del Rey by the boats and journey toward the South bay. Why?? One reason is how much more traffic there is now and another reason is, I need a change and still another, it is much more laid back and friendly in my new neighborhood... So has any one else moved lately? What a chore and how time consuming but how fun to rearrange everything in the new place and purchase new items...
Now I need a rest and change of weather so I am off to Florida. I love staying right by the beach, seeing and hearing the ocean from my suite. I actually love this balmy weather I am seriously thinking of getting a place here and becoming bi-coastal...It was exquisite visiting Butterfly World in a setting of waterfalls, fish, exotic birds and even flowers with thousands of brilliantly colorful amazing butterflies.. Oh my gosh, what a fantastic boat ride down the everglades in an up seated open air boat...I saw alligators, native birds, and snakes and so much wildlife in one place... This was soo much fun...I could get used to this...Am I a Tourist?? Oh, I even worked out at a Gold's Gym in Deerfield and found a Whole Foods Health store in Boca Raton.... Oh, wait to you all see my pictures from Florida in the December update... Well Happy Thanksgiving to you all!! What are you thankful for this year?? Take a few minutes to email me what you are most thankful for.. I am very thankful for my amazing energy and creativity and my opportunity to make a difference in many peoples' lives...But what I am most thankful for is my spiritual connection within...It's what keeps me sane and feeling alive...Now this is your opportunity to make sure you let everyone you love know how much you are thankful for their presence in your life and how much you truly care...Make sure they feel you mean it!!...
Much Love, Thankfulness and Juiciness in your Lives, Dr.Dagny
December 2003
I love living at the beach and exercising by climbing the steep stairs by the Esplanade and watching the dolphins... Today I actually saw baby dolphins as well. Here I am at Shania Twain Concert with friends and it is marvelous and so are our seats up front. What a fabulous rush of excitement! Enjoying a glass of merlot before she comes on.. Do you all know how much I love Country and Western music? Music to me is such an aphrodisiac; it opens the body in many ways. You can be moved into dancing, feeling one with the music, letting it permeate your whole body and mind, feeling alive, alert and filling my soul with pleasure. I love to feeeel this good...I also look pretty hot with my tight brown leather pants, leather boots and pink top...Don't we all deserve to feel and look as good as possible all of our life? Just trying to keep myself feeling joyous since this time is also sad since I am missing my mom and dad during the holidays...I am in the process of putting together week end beach retreats of body, mind and spirit for singles or couples... What a wonderful way to start the New Year and speaking of that, 2003 this year has been such a blur since it started and is ending so quickly... How many things have happened this year and what have I accomplished to bring me closer to my dreams? My brand-new comic book, the Adventures of Dagny, the Immortal Tantrika, which will be finally be produced is very exciting and well worth all the effort and money that I have put into it this year. Also I am getting back into my hypnotherapy specializing in Childhood Regression since I am not offering Tantra privates right now... One of my Devotee's sent me one of the most accurate and understandable definition of Sexual Spirituality:
"Sexual Spirituality is a body-based spirituality in which making love is considered one of the highest sacred acts in which one can engage, in part because making love makes more love. Our form is a sacred expression of Source, and by honoring both our own and others' bodies, we are honoring the divine and its embodiment in us. Pleasure is soul food, when pursued with clear intent and love. When we disconnect from pleasure and the body, we cut ourselves off from experiencing the divine ecstasy that is inherent in our human design."
Much Love, Bliss and Juiciness, Dr. Dagny
January 2004
It has been soo cold in LA that I decided to go to Palm Springs for New Year's Eve but it proved to be cold in the evening also... I stayed at the beautiful Marriott surrounded with the lake.. We took a gondola ride to the restaurant. Can you imagine? . Lots of sushi, champagne, laughter, exchange of gifts with friends. Even exchanging juicy passionate kisses with my date and making long slow Tantric love later at our hotel room...
I loved that the theme was humming birds in the hotel since I am so fond of them. There were pictures of humming birds on the water bottles, the robes, and the stationary and on all the shampoo and other bottles. It reminded me of how I was going to get a tattoo of one on my butt but never did...It rekindled my desire to get it done. . I will have an update soon and possibly a photo of my beautiful butt with the humming bird on it.. Took a steam on New Year Day followed by a dip in an ice-cold pool. That's what I call Exhilarating!! It definitely took my hangover away...
What an amazing year 2003 was although I felt it went by soo quickly. Many losses but many more rewards. Many insights, lots of creativity and even forgiveness of others and myself...But I am ecstatic to bring in 2004 which I foresee to be the Best Year of my Entire Life. .... How incredible and uplifting to believe this and see it unfolding for me. What would that look like? Well since I am such a Romantic, my Diamond Warrior will be loving and spoiling me and we will be traveling the world, being best friends, lovers and even business partners. Of course I will still be creating more on Tantric Oasis...I am both a romantic and a dreamer because without dreams there is no passion in our lives.. So Dream on Dear Ones as I will never stop My Dreams because they will come true if you believe enough...You might even want to share them with me, your Love Doctor. Now tell me your dreams and fantasies!
Let the Divine Mother make us channels of her peace.. May she fill our souls with her infinite Love. May she fill our hearts with infinite courage.. May she infuse our minds with her infinite wisdom..
Happy Divine New Year, My Beloveds With Goddess Blessings From Dr. Dagny!
March 2004
I know that I have been slacking off on writing but sooo much has been happening in my life. One wonderful thing after another....and the most Delightful Miracle of all is my Soul Mate coming into my life in October when I least expected it. Of course I didn't realize he was my Diamond Warrior, loving me unconditionally, until just last month.. I guess I was pretty numb with all I went through, the death of my parents two months apart and recently the passing of my grandmother. I had all the typical excuses that keep us from opening our heart and letting the most exquisite deep love in. But that didn't stop him one bit since he knew on a spiritual level that we were perfect for each other. His focused faith in our connection was so powerful and unswerving that he touched my soul on such a deep level. One thing that stands out was his total patience and trust demonstrating to me how open he truly was whether I reciprocated or not. In other words he loved me whether I responded with love or indifference... He won my heart like a Knight in Shining Armor winning the fair Lady's hand after doing battle for eons.
And for all of you reading this, I deeply wish you the same. However you must do more then wish or desire.. You need to open your heart and prepare. Make the space for her to appear in your life. Aren't you worthy of that? Be brave!! Be the Tantric Warrior you were born to be and you will attract love and passion into your life.. If you already have love but are taking it for granted then open your heart and let yourself become devoted to her. If you have love but want to enhance it then do the same...BTW our Tantric lovemaking blows us both away...I love the way Tantra has assisted me in all areas of my most blissful life...I want to thank all of you for your emails on wondering why I no longer take private sessions... I am most grateful for your kind thoughts and words... I will let you know if things change....
I am so exited about my comic book coming out in a month.... I will be at the San Diego Convention Center for the Comic-Con in July.. Hope to see you there...More about that later....
Much Love, Appreciation, Bliss and Juiciness, Dr. Dagny
July 2004
Everything has been moving soo quickly and amazing miracles are happening in my life in terms of my creativity, my love life and my living space.. I am still in love, infact more deeply then ever and my comic book, "The Adventures of Dagny the Immortal Tantrika" is printed and is available to purchase online ...Guess where I moved? I now live in the Orange County area.. I decided to move away from LA after an unfortunate fire in my place. The fire happened in my bedroom due to incense ashes or a candle burning down to far.. I must admit that it was probably one of, if not the scariest thing that has happened to me...Imagine if you will, hearing the smoke detector going off and walking into the bedroom with intense flames coming from my Spiritual altar with many flammable items on it and around it...I know for sure that I was divinely protected since it could have been much worse...Still, the fear and shock was imbedded in my body in the form of tension...I also felt the traffic was getting worse and it seemed to be bothering me..
Enough of that memory, I want to talk about my booth at the San Diego Comic Con in the Convention center where I was introducing and selling my Tantric comic book. What an amazing place and outrageous booths are here including Star Wars and the Terminator. But one of the most fascinating aspects of this four-day event were the fans dressing up as their favorite comic book hero or heroine and walking around... I had lots of photos but {sorry about that} my assistant's computer crashed with them all on it... I had two exquisite posters of Dagny the Immortal Tantrika with my winged unicorn.{ Refer to photo which is also the cover of the next issue} It actually was a lot of fun selling and autographing my book... I was surprised with the number of women who purchased it. I was pleasantly surprised to meet such lovely spiritual people who truly appreciated my book. Sorry you weren't there.... Much Love to you all!!
January 2005...Alas, I am alone again but not really since the deep and romantic love I felt for Donny is held in my Heart Chakra and embraces me daily as the Magical, Loving and Delicious moments we shared always bring a smile to my face, an exhilaration through my body and a pounding in my heart. I am back doing my Life's Work, Tantra, and I must admit, more Compassionate, Intuitive and Wise then ever. It has brought me Renewed Fulfillment and Comittment.
Orange County men and couples are the most appreciative, sincere and open to becoming awake and transforming themselves then any other place I have been teaching..... Why didn't it work out with us, Donny and me?? A Tantrika and a Christian together for over a year and a half is a miracle in itself... My favorite movie is "What the bleep" and one of my favorite books is "The DaVinci Code"...Need I say more?? Well for all of U who want to make more sense of this including "yours truly," I will share these thoughts and feelings from my Heart and my Soul...
As a lot of you know, the pain of letting go of someone you are passionately and deeply in love with can be excruciating and even as a Goddess, I did not escape this. One night as I lay in the bath with candles, sipping on fine red wine {my favorite} and listening to Sarah Brightman {we both loved her music, even went to one of her concerts together}, a song starts playing that was special to us and I feel deep longing for his physicality...Strong arousal deep within my 1st and 2nd chakra {vagina and g-spot} wells up in me.... Unfortunately that delicious juiciness subsides and my 3rd chakra {my solarplex} tightens up as I feel the loneliness and that deep aching inside, that pain of missing him...But wait, I tell myself.... The Love I am missing is inside myself and at that moment I feel such love and profound joy in my heart, 4th chakra, and allow that Love to surround me, letting go and surrendering to that who I am.... Love...Bliss is welling up in my heart and showering through my whole being as one vibrational Orgasm!! Yes that's what I said and that is precisely what I felt...This lasted for minutes...The calmness and peacefulness I felt is indescribable. Ending in my 6th chakra, vision.... I feel completely connected now, body, mind and spirit... So do you see, my godly readers, how crucial unblocking and unlocking your body's energy centers or chakras are?? Healing our unworthiness on the deepest level is to become what we are: Love...The more you feel in your body... the more conscious you become...
Eckhart Tolle says it best in his book... "The Power of Now" "The Key is to be in a State of Permanent Connectedness with your inner body- to feel it at all times. This will rapidly deepen and transform your life.. The more consciousness you direct into the inner body, the higher its vibrational frequency becomes.." Much Love to you all!!
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